Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Engagements, Surgeries & Stupid Movies

It makes me so sad to know that Pen is turning 6 weeks tomorrow! Is this how it is? You blink and before you know it they are in high school? I'm not sure I like that part. It would be awesome for her to stay this size forever but be able to communicate like a 20 year old. Nevermind, that would be creepy :)

This past weekend my brother got engaged to the beautiful Julie Zeller. Jona, Pen and I drove down to San Diego (Julie's hometown) and celebrated with them at a surprise engagement party at Julie's parent's house. I can't begin to describe how thrilled we are that Julie is joining our family. She is a gorgeous girl with a heart that loves the Lord and my brother.

Its no secret that I adore my family. My brother is one of my best friends. To watch someone love him as she does is one of the most beautiful blessings of life. She is funny, smart and comes from an INCREDIBLE family. I can't wait to have opportunities to spend more time with them throughout the years of their marriage and to raise our kids together. Julie's mom Robbie has been one of my biggest prayer warriors throughout my pregnancy and I adore her too! I could go on and on forever about how excited I am, but I won't. ;) I'm sure I'll write more about them in the months to come.

After we got back I started experiencing some weird pain that I hadn't felt before. I had a postpartum appointment on Monday morning and I didn't get the best of news. As it turns out my incision is infected and I have another complication that is going to require surgery. :( I don't want to go into huge detail but I am not excited for the next couple of weeks. I really thought I was completely healed only to find out that I'm taking several steps backwards. I'm back on heavy pain killers which is limiting what I can do. Hopefully this surgery will be scheduled quickly and we can get it over with without further complications.

Here is the blessing in it, my mom came last Sunday to stay with us for a week. She came to celebrate David's engagement and spend time with us while my dad is at Shepherd's Conference. I can't think of a better time for her to be here. I was really overwhelmed and having her here is once again a HUGE blessing. Also, Penny has been incredible these last few days, really since my major pain started up. How precious is God to know exactly what we can handle?! Penny has been either awake and happy or sleeping and happy. I haven't been sleeping but it hasn't been due to her. Praise God for His kindness! I can't imagine what it would be like to take care of what has been a pretty colic-y baby and have this intense pain at the same time.

Last night, in the midst of everything Jona and I decided to try to get away for a couple of hours since my mom was here to watch the baby. It was a horrible idea all around. I missed Pen, I was exhausted from not sleeping and the pain stopped me from really enjoying myself. On top of all that, we left too late to have dinner together (which is typically the best part of our dates) and so we just went straight to a movie. We decided to see Shutter Island, which I have been wanting to see for a while because we love scary movies. Not only was it not scary, but it had a HORRIBLE scene in which a woman drowns her three babies. I don't want to go into great detail, but that was probably the absolute worst thing I could have possibly seen right now. I sobbed. We walked out and I was still crying. All the way to the car, on the way home and when I got home to hold Penny. My hormones could not handle that right now (I probably couldn't handle it even without the hormones) and I am so sad I saw it since I can't get it out of my mind. My poor husband felt so bad and tried to comfort me but it didn't work. I really want to be more careful about what I'm putting in my mind. I'm not saying it was bad for everyone, it just wasn't good for me.

Anyway... sorry I have nothing really worth writing about. I'm just rambling, but at least I'm attempting to blog :). Ok, off to snuggle with my husband and little girl!

1 comment:

  1. Sooz,
    I'm so sorry about the surgery!! I'm praying for you. I'm back on bed rest, but as soon as I can move around I'm coming to help you!! As far as Shutter Island goes...saw it. Actually, I should say I sat in the theater with my eyes closed the whole time because of all the disturbing images. I feel your pain.